lil sad poem

filled with hot tears and sad dreams
closed eyes burn,
memories sting.
time doesn't heal all wounds,
we just get used to them.

i miss my family

i've been stuck on songs from my favorite musicals, but lately Home and Soon as I Get Home from The Wiz have me all choked up.

Home

When I think of home
I think of a place where there's love overflowing
I wish I was home
I wish I was back there
With the things I've been knowing

Wind that makes the tall grass bend into leaning
Suddenly the rain drops that fall have a meaning
Sprinklin' the scene, makes it all clean

Maybe there's a chance for me to go back
Now that I have some direction
It would be sure nice to be back home
Where there's love and affection
And just maybe I can convince time to slow up
Giving me enough time in my life to grow up
Time, be my friend
And let me start again

Suddenly my world's gone and changed it's face
But I still know where I'm going
I have had my mind spun around in space
And yet I've watched it growing

Oh If you're list'ning God
Please don't make it hard to know
If we should believe in things that we see
Tell us, should we run away should we try and stay
Or would it be better just to let things be?

Living here, in this brand new world
Might be a fantasy
But it taught me to love
So it's real, real to me

And I've learned
That we must look inside our hearts
To find a world full of love
Like yours
Like mine

Like home...

Soon as I Get Home
There's a feeling here inside
That I cannot hide
And I know I've tried
But it's turning me around

I'm not sure that I'm aware
If I'm up or down
Or here or there
I need both feet on the ground

Maybe I'm just going crazy
Let myself get uptight
I'm acting just like a baby
But I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be alright

Soon as I get home
Soon as I get home
Soon as I get home

In a different place
In a different time
Different people around me
I would like to know of that different world
And how different they find me

And just what's a Wiz
Is he big, will he scare me?
If I ask to leave
Will the Wiz even hear me?
How will I know then
If I'll ever get home again?

Here I am alone
Though it feels the same
I don't know where I'm going
I'm here on my own
And it's not a game
And a strange wind is blowing

I'm so amazed
At the things that I see here
Don't want to be afraid
I just don't want to be afraid
I just don't want to be here
In my mind this is clear
What am I doing here?

I wish I was home

it's too early for me to be doing anythin on a Sunday

i don't really like kids....but i managed to get called to babysit every weekend.
Ironic? Yes
Annoying? Yes
Lucrative? Yes
Enjoyable? not even a little bit.

i'm a good babysitter, that's what is so ironic about the whole thing.
Last time i had to babysit i almost burst into tears i was so tired of "playing" with two year old twins and an infant.
Babysitting isn't as bad if i knew the kid since birth. Then the kids are more like family and i have a little more control of them. New kids love me, but don't really take my "get off of that before u fall!" seriously. I miss my old kids, the Philly kids.

i will continue to babysit because i have no other job, but in reality i really miss my weekends being baby free.

gross

i was walking and i saw a girl drop something... i assumed it was an earring or something because she picked it up carefully then blew on it.
We were walking in the same direction and i was watching hoping it was an earring and not gum she was picking off the ground.

It was gum. She put it in her mouth. She chewed it. i made a face. i judged her.

There is no gum in the world good enuff to pick up off the street after it falls out of your mouth. And if the gum is so great you should have extra pieces. Gum is one of those things that does not follow the 5 second rule. When gum hits the ground it is over, so keep extra pieces.

Her first problem was having gum fall outo of her mouth when she was not talking. What the hell was she doing that gum fell out of what i thought was a closed mouth...?

-girl opposed to eating off the ground

vagazzle???

This rite here is STUPID!



i think this is weird and i'm concerned that Jennifer is promoting this. Vaginas are not supposed to reflect light!

and who the hell puts the rhinestones down there?..... i don't even really wanna know forget i asked.

-i don't even wanna sign this one.

inspired

Today in my psychology of religion class, a Holocaust survivor came and talked to us. i have learned about the holocaust in school before and seen pictures of it, but none of it registered as real as listening to someone speak from first hand experience.

i feel very fortunate to have had the opportunity to listen to a true survior.

People are really amazing in their passion, love, , strength, determination, hatred, cruelty, and power.

i am forever astounded by people, good and bad.

-girl

stupid PC

in an ideal world PC's would not exist.
We would not be plagued by slow and stubborn computers.
I know all companies have PC's and blah blah blah, but they effing suck!
They do not have the infinately helpful short cut keys, easy to use setup, or speedy processor.

i like fast. i talk fast i walk fast, i get annoyed fast. There for PC is NOT the computer for me.
I can blame a many crappy days on PC computer malfunctions. Today would be one of those stupid i hate PC's and they clearly hate me more kinda days.

I would really like to know how on this entire downtown campus there are only three macs in the compter labs (multiple labs only 3 macs)!

i am gonna start bringing my lovely laptop with me everywhere just so i can counter the stupid PC world around me



-girl who misses mac computer labs