k!dult

Saturday June 26th was the k!dult youth leadership conference hosted by Pharrell. it was the first kidult conference and it was in New York. The wonderful miss Field had an extra ticket so she invited me to go. i'm so glad she did because i had a great time. i didn't really take any pictures, but i walked away with a lil more than a few snapshots.

The conference was well organized and engaging the entire time. Normally i get bored during lectures or when there is a speaker standing on a podium telling me what i SHOULD be doing. Kidult wasn't like that. There were mentoring sessions and time allotted for mingling with other people or asking speakers questions. Pharrell performed for a lil at the end of the conference, but he made it very clear that the point of the entire day was the get inspired and motivated to do more and be more than just a teen.

i thought about selling cookies this summer, but after hearing this guy speak about how he started a business selling brownies, i know i need to stop fooling around and get to getting.
i really appreciate the opportunity Pharrell is giving us as young people to network and ask questions. Pharrell could just have easily donated money to charity or done nothing at all. He instead took the time out and money to help us get ahead.

Thanks,

-ambitious girl

for the stolen ones....

i started writing a poem down my thigh because i didn't have paper. There has been a lot of sadness around philly and my community. i felt i had to write something down.

ahhh death you rear your ugly head again.
not to take one of mine but one of those in alliance.
you do it just to tease take the innocent with thunder and regret.
you make us blame ourselves,
question our motives,
and shed tears we didn't expect to use for years.
ahhh death you're a tricky one you are. knock us off our toes,
put weapons in the hands of the weak,
to bring the living closer together.
we light candles in the darkness
but we can't ligh candles in our hearts.
i wasn't expecting to see you so soon.
felt like yesterday when he was stolen from the love.
was this some sick reminder that my life is short,
that love is undying
and appreciation can raise hundreds?
with all the pain you caused taking him from us
and her from them,
we are all learning to overcome.
send letters of affection and take pictures of friendships.
join in times of pain and rejoice in our memories.
tattoo love poems down our spines to support our ambition.
ahhh death you slip in and out of life.
i will never forget you and i surely won't get used to you.
for to lay down and take pain is to give up.
moving on, overcoming and remembering
is not the same as accepting and becoming consumed with the concept of you.
i'm choosing to remember and do better.
live out what they were not permitted to do.
most importantly tell those i love what matters most
their presence, even for just a moment, makes my life worth living

end of the year

Today was the official last day for me.

i think overall this was a good year.
i've made some fun friends and learned a lot about myself.
i actually am gonna miss quite a few people while i'm in philly.

Thank you DePaul its been real, but
this chicks ready to see her fam though.

outfit from the other day....

--girl

bamboos

i crushed my trademark bamboo hoops!
Valen told me i was no longer an around the way girl lol
not that i was a true around the way girl in the first place, but its the principle my earrings are gone and i feel a little naked.

I want a girl with extensions in her hair
Bamboo earrings
At least two pair
A Fendi bag and a bad attitude
That's all I need to get me in a good mood
She can walk with a switch and talk with street slang
I love it when a woman ain't scared to do her thing
Standing at the bus stop sucking on a lollipop
Once she gets pumping its hard to make the hottie stop
She likes to dance to the rap jam
She sweet as brown sugar with the candied yams
Honey coated complexion
Using Camay
Lets hear it for the girl she's from around the way

Life....

There has been a lot going on.
it's the last full week of school and i have just been going through a lot.
i am doing well though.
i'm almost done my freshman year at DePaul University!
i am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason and karma's a bitch.
i'm trying to be more positive and let life happen. You meet some really beautiful people along the way.


Recently i was feeling especially optimistic i made a list of things i like.

I like..

• Lists
• Kisses
• Friends
• Foreign films
• When class is over
• Nail polish (i finally found a blue similar to the one in Beyonce's video)
• Rings
• Peach ice tea
• naps
• Freshly pressed hair
• Nice boys
• Crossword puzzles (especially finished ones)
• Moisturized legs
• Clean sheets
• Texting
• Finishing homework early (rarely happens)
• Shoes
• Taking my shoes off
• The sun and the Beach
• Whistling at inappropriate times
• Reclaiming my emotions
• Talking to family
• Winning
• Singing
• Naming things
• My crazy ass life with all its drama (sometimes)

-girl