When nothing else makes sense i got a few people i can call to help clear shit up.
i really love my crew and can't wait to get home and see them.
rena, duckie, ziggy, ave
♥
-girl

i miss my family

i've been stuck on songs from my favorite musicals, but lately Home and Soon as I Get Home from The Wiz have me all choked up.

Home

When I think of home
I think of a place where there's love overflowing
I wish I was home
I wish I was back there
With the things I've been knowing

Wind that makes the tall grass bend into leaning
Suddenly the rain drops that fall have a meaning
Sprinklin' the scene, makes it all clean

Maybe there's a chance for me to go back
Now that I have some direction
It would be sure nice to be back home
Where there's love and affection
And just maybe I can convince time to slow up
Giving me enough time in my life to grow up
Time, be my friend
And let me start again

Suddenly my world's gone and changed it's face
But I still know where I'm going
I have had my mind spun around in space
And yet I've watched it growing

Oh If you're list'ning God
Please don't make it hard to know
If we should believe in things that we see
Tell us, should we run away should we try and stay
Or would it be better just to let things be?

Living here, in this brand new world
Might be a fantasy
But it taught me to love
So it's real, real to me

And I've learned
That we must look inside our hearts
To find a world full of love
Like yours
Like mine

Like home...

Soon as I Get Home
There's a feeling here inside
That I cannot hide
And I know I've tried
But it's turning me around

I'm not sure that I'm aware
If I'm up or down
Or here or there
I need both feet on the ground

Maybe I'm just going crazy
Let myself get uptight
I'm acting just like a baby
But I'm gonna be
I'm gonna be alright

Soon as I get home
Soon as I get home
Soon as I get home

In a different place
In a different time
Different people around me
I would like to know of that different world
And how different they find me

And just what's a Wiz
Is he big, will he scare me?
If I ask to leave
Will the Wiz even hear me?
How will I know then
If I'll ever get home again?

Here I am alone
Though it feels the same
I don't know where I'm going
I'm here on my own
And it's not a game
And a strange wind is blowing

I'm so amazed
At the things that I see here
Don't want to be afraid
I just don't want to be afraid
I just don't want to be here
In my mind this is clear
What am I doing here?

I wish I was home

friends are fun

it's really great to see my friends. i sorta feel like i never left, but at the same time i feel i have been gone forever.

i went to the homecoming football game and saw a lot of my central people, but didn't get to really spend a lot of time with anyone. i went back to Central the Monday after thanksgiving to see my teachers and visit a few friends. it was nice seeing everyone, but i think i'm gonna try and stay out of the halls of Central High for a while.

I had lunch with Blondie (amelia) and we had soooo much fun. We yelled, jumped, laughed, ate, creeped, wandered, ate again, ran, hugged then i left.

jo came over today and yesterday. We yelled, hugged, laughed, took retarded pictures, reminisced, i ate, it rained, she left.

i'm going to NYC to see juicy this weekend. i can't wait i miss her soo much. its crazy to go from seeing someone everyday to not seeing them for months.

its good to be home

-girl

officially in college

Yesterday i finished my first quarter (yes, quarters not semesters) at DePaul University!
its crazy it went by soooo fast. The quarters are only 10weeks but I swear it was shorter. It has been an interesting 10weeks.

i have moved out of my parents house, moved in with my aunt, enrolled in classes, wrote more essays than i did in my entire senior year, stayed up till 5am many times trying to finish homework, got sick 3 times, enrolled for next quarter classes, fell in love with Chicago.

it is still kinda weird to say i am in college. i knew it was gonna happen and i am enjoying being here (when i'm not up at 5am doing homework), but its weird. When i first got here i was hype because i've never had this much free time. i didn't know what do with it. Now i know. HOMEWORK—it does not control my life if i space out my work, but i'm 18, time management is still a work in progress. homework, studying, sleeping, eating, going out. its possible to do all of it if you keep a schedule which i don't. Next quarter i got this forreal forreal.

i really love being here but i cannot wait to go home and see my family and friends. i didn't think i would miss everyone so much. im going to be home for 6 weeks straight (great benefit of being on the quarter system) i already know what i want to do. TAKE PICTURES

i haven't been able to take many pictures here since my friends here have totally different schedules from me, or just have no desire to wander the city with me for hours taking random pictures.

-girl