for the stolen ones....

i started writing a poem down my thigh because i didn't have paper. There has been a lot of sadness around philly and my community. i felt i had to write something down.

ahhh death you rear your ugly head again.
not to take one of mine but one of those in alliance.
you do it just to tease take the innocent with thunder and regret.
you make us blame ourselves,
question our motives,
and shed tears we didn't expect to use for years.
ahhh death you're a tricky one you are. knock us off our toes,
put weapons in the hands of the weak,
to bring the living closer together.
we light candles in the darkness
but we can't ligh candles in our hearts.
i wasn't expecting to see you so soon.
felt like yesterday when he was stolen from the love.
was this some sick reminder that my life is short,
that love is undying
and appreciation can raise hundreds?
with all the pain you caused taking him from us
and her from them,
we are all learning to overcome.
send letters of affection and take pictures of friendships.
join in times of pain and rejoice in our memories.
tattoo love poems down our spines to support our ambition.
ahhh death you slip in and out of life.
i will never forget you and i surely won't get used to you.
for to lay down and take pain is to give up.
moving on, overcoming and remembering
is not the same as accepting and becoming consumed with the concept of you.
i'm choosing to remember and do better.
live out what they were not permitted to do.
most importantly tell those i love what matters most
their presence, even for just a moment, makes my life worth living

end of the year

Today was the official last day for me.

i think overall this was a good year.
i've made some fun friends and learned a lot about myself.
i actually am gonna miss quite a few people while i'm in philly.

Thank you DePaul its been real, but
this chicks ready to see her fam though.

outfit from the other day....

--girl

bamboos

i crushed my trademark bamboo hoops!
Valen told me i was no longer an around the way girl lol
not that i was a true around the way girl in the first place, but its the principle my earrings are gone and i feel a little naked.

I want a girl with extensions in her hair
Bamboo earrings
At least two pair
A Fendi bag and a bad attitude
That's all I need to get me in a good mood
She can walk with a switch and talk with street slang
I love it when a woman ain't scared to do her thing
Standing at the bus stop sucking on a lollipop
Once she gets pumping its hard to make the hottie stop
She likes to dance to the rap jam
She sweet as brown sugar with the candied yams
Honey coated complexion
Using Camay
Lets hear it for the girl she's from around the way

Life....

There has been a lot going on.
it's the last full week of school and i have just been going through a lot.
i am doing well though.
i'm almost done my freshman year at DePaul University!
i am a firm believer in everything happens for a reason and karma's a bitch.
i'm trying to be more positive and let life happen. You meet some really beautiful people along the way.


Recently i was feeling especially optimistic i made a list of things i like.

I like..

• Lists
• Kisses
• Friends
• Foreign films
• When class is over
• Nail polish (i finally found a blue similar to the one in Beyonce's video)
• Rings
• Peach ice tea
• naps
• Freshly pressed hair
• Nice boys
• Crossword puzzles (especially finished ones)
• Moisturized legs
• Clean sheets
• Texting
• Finishing homework early (rarely happens)
• Shoes
• Taking my shoes off
• The sun and the Beach
• Whistling at inappropriate times
• Reclaiming my emotions
• Talking to family
• Winning
• Singing
• Naming things
• My crazy ass life with all its drama (sometimes)

-girl

realization

Facebook makes me feel like i'm entitled to the world's private life. Between google, wikipedia and facebook i wonder how much random information i know.....

-curious girl

betterin time....

i know the video is kinda old now, but i'm having one of those-this is my life story in song form-moments.

It will all get better in time....

-girl with dreams of happier days

beyonce is a pinup

i hate on Beyonce sometimes, who doesn't?
Some times though its not hate....she is just doing the most.

BUT....

today i approve of something she is doing. i like this video a lot.

i had to listen to it a few times to like the song and i'm still not sure if i like it. i feel a little like she is yelling at me...but i guess she is mad.

i just love love love pinups and the 50's fashion. Everything she has on in this video is just so cute. From the sunglasses to the shoes she is just too cute!

i think i am going to try and track down nail polish like hers, the color its fun and summery.

(the color on blogs is never the way i expect it to be)

Why don't you love me? Tell me baby why don't you love me when i make me so easy to love. Why don't you need me? Tell me baby why don't you need me when i make me so damn easy to need.

-girl